What's up everyone,
Per usual, thank you for the support and listening to the podcast. The consistent listens make me feel accomplished. Starting today (Sunday Aug. 20th 2023) if been feeling blue. I'd imagine its the apart of the process from being laid off. It's a death, not physical but still, something died that was deeply connected to my everyday. My life basically revolved around it and now to have an immediate cease in routine, that threw a monkey wrench in my tire. I'm pretty resilient, ill make it through obviously but I am deeply feeling it right now. What is in store for me? When will the rubber meet the road? Where is the light at the end of the tunnel? What should I be doing? How come nothing is working? I just have a ton of question, but i guess i need to be patient. I am a patient person, I've been patient my entire life waiting for the moment and what if that moment never comes? What if i've been foolishly awaiting for nothing and then it all ends, never making an impact? What am I even waiting for? I have to go get it but what am i getting? Do you see the implication? How can i chase something, if i dont even know what it is. Sometimes, I wish I can use an AI to scan my brain and body and then the results print out "After analyzing your data....you are 99.9% supposed to be a _____________". Maybe sometime in the future that will exist, but wouldn't that kill dreams? I don't think an AI can analyze how one would act in a moment of terror and a person becomes a hero or the only reason a person amounted to something great is because they were told " NO, youll never be able to accomplish that." All I know is, i'm going to keep grinding these podcasts out and I will go to the be going to the red room (comedy bar) to do open mics every Wednesday to try and make people laugh and feel better about their day!
Thank you everyone for listening and reading
Jay
